I've always wondered why my head seems to be stuck in the clouds
I know now, and I'm not let down
When I'm given the choice between fight or flight
I fly
'Anywhere but here'
It seems I always say
And given the choice between darkness and light
I'd like to say I choose light
But instead I too often hide
I'm tired of giving in to the power of others over me
I was once told 'no one can drive you crazy if you don't give them the keys'
So hold your head high and this time fight
Don't fly
Birds are graceful but they stay on the ground sometimes too
Maybe your fascination with birds is really just your fascination with you
You selfish, selfish child, learn to accept grace
Mercy is yours, new every day
And this time consider that maybe you're meant to stay in that place
Not of fear, but of strength
Not relying on yourself, but accepting refuge
Fight, but don't be so tough that you can't allow yourself to be vulnerable in others' sight
The foxes in the vineyard cannot steal your joy
So don't be afraid of the evil man's ploy
For like the grass he will soon wither away
As in the heat of the sun, the light of day
Allow yourself to find comfort in God's heart
And He will protect you, every part, 
you will be covered with His wings
And one day
Fly again

i didn't forget

it's amazing how when you stop doing something for a while you almost seem to forget how to come back to it. I haven't forgotten about my quiet little blog, I think of it every now and then. I believe in my last post published I talked about how I had gone on a social media hiatus. I did. And I came back from it. And then my laptop decided to say goodbye forever a few days later. I can't buy a new one right now, and if the problem is what I think it is (I've done a ton of research on it), it would cost more than that laptop did to repair it.

there are other computers in my house but they are shared with the rest of my family and used often by others for school and work, so when I am able to use one of them, blogging is pretty much the furthest thing from my mind. This is okay with me though, because it's helping me to focus on other things right now. here is a little life update if y'all would like to hear what I've been up to these last few months:

I've made a ton more time for reading again lately and I love it so so much. I haven't read this much in years and I forgot how much I loved it. I carry at least one book with me pretty much at all times now. haha! If you want to see what I've been reading and maybe even swap book recommendations, the link to my goodreads profile is at the top of the page next to my header. ;)

I can't recall if I've mentioned it or not but since the school year started, I've been babysitting four afternoons a week, we had snow the weekend before last so I spent a few full days babysitting when school was out too.
I've actually managed to fix my sleep schedule, which was a huge problem for me for a few years. sleep is pretty cool, I guess. xD
obviously I made time to play in the snow when we had it. I may be a legal adult but if there's snow, I'm going to enjoy it. ;)
Let's see, what else have I been up to?

I saw Taylor Swift in concert a few months ago - we got good seats and had the best time ever! Andrea was SO close to my friend Joy and I at one point and we started freaking out!!!! I love concerts so much. ^_^
I saw Mockingjay Pt. 2 with Joy as well (and my sister and our good friend who is also named Sarah!)...it felt like the end of a freaking era. I am not ashamed to say I cried a little in the theater. And when the mutts came out I jumped so high in my seat, even though I read the books and knew it was coming. haha
I went ice skating for the first time in almost 2 years and the usual place wasn't open yet so we went to a different one...it was interesting to say the least. For one thing, let's just say there was a dude skating around reading a book while listening to music, 'kay?

Christmas break was interesting. I went bowling for the first time ever and had beginner's luck resulting in a strike on my first turn. I'm not the greatest bowler. haha Several relatives visited for Christmas and I got some fun gifts, ate some good food, and had some great times.
A few weeks ago we had to put our Jack Russell Terrier, Spike, to sleep. He was really old, uncomfortable, grumpy, and very protective over his food, resulting in him biting my sister a couple days after Christmas, so we knew it was his time to go. It was for the best, but as with every loss it is still hard. <3

I can't think of much more to say, my tea is getting cold and I'm getting sleepy, so I'll say goodbye and leave you all with something my dentist said to me last time I saw her, because it made me think of my blog. ;)

"If you're gonna do something your mama told you not to, at least use your head, 'cause you usually know when you're in over it."

later, friends. maybe I'll post again before it's been almost three more months. ;)

xoxo Sarah

p.s. 5 or 6 years ago I would not have thought I would ever say type these words, but...I like Justin Bieber now. There, it's out. haha Anyone else liking his new album?

a saturday morning || creative pursuits

I yawn and stretch as I rise, fumbling down the stairs. I start the coffee maker and eat a small something while waiting for the coffee to finish brewing, it drips right into my favorite mug. I "doctor" the coffee and then carry it with me back to my room and set it down while I pull out my project.
The wheels in my mind start turning and I forget all about my coffee - my mind is a mess already thinking about all I want to accomplish. Working on one thing but thinking of something to add to another project I've been working on!
My mind is constantly distracting itself, always working on more than one thing at once, meaning multiple projects are going at a time. It's not exactly conventional, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
It may take me three times as long to finish something, but I love thinking of the perfect little things to add here and there.

My friend bought me a waterproof notepad to stick in the shower so I can scribble down my ideas - that way they don't end up going straight down the drain when my mind wanders off to thinking about something else - and my brilliant ideas are lost no more. She did this after I told her I had been in the shower and completely forgot part of a poem I had in my head. haha
This reminds me of stories of other creatives - creative geniuses, more like (disclaimer: haha. not calling myself a creative genius. at. all.) - such as Mark Twain, Benjamin Franklin, Thomas Edison, Leonardo da Vinci, or Beethoven keeping pocket notebooks with them to furiously scribble down their ideas wherever they were, whatever they were doing, that had sparked their creative senses.
Don't try to make sense of the mind of a creative. We don't know how to explain it ourselves, we just try to embrace it and use it to the best of our abilities: to try, to make mistakes, to learn, to keep learning, and to grow in the areas of our creative pursuits.


I recently made this scarf, and before that, a baby blanket for my sister's sister-in-law. I do more than just knitting, but I've been in a knitting phase lately. ;)

What are some creative projects you've been working on recently? Do you ever like to write down your ideas like I talked about?